Goodbye Cazale

Tonight before dinner I was with the kids. For some reason I thought it would be good that they know I was leaving so its not like we just don’t come down anymore. So I asked Henley to tell Evenson and Denny that Lindsay and I had to leave tomorrow. They understood because they are older. They are used to people coming and going, so maybe they won’t be sad. Evenson seemed pretty sad though and didn’t want to be away from me the rest of the night. We had so much fun today. He’ll just say 3 words and I’ll repeat after him, then we make a song out of it. I love him so much! It was time for dinner and I knew that I needed to tell him and the others goodbye. I kissed them all and said “mwe amo” (or something to that effect) to the ones I’d been playing with : Hope, Denny, Bartelmy and Evenson. When I walked away I wanted to cry. When I got to the steps I did cry. I had a few steps to go that I could before I’d make it to the top and some one might see me. So I let out a few wimpers… I will miss them so much! I didn’t realize it would be this hard. I have been so ready to get to the next place that I thought it would be so easy.

Today is my birthday and I got to call home. I called my mom and was able to talk for like 3 minutes…maybe. Her, Megan and Steve sang happy birthday to me. After that I went blank. It was like I had nothing to say except hey…miss ya! Hearing her voice made me realize how much I miss home. I cried a little when I hung up.
Lindsay called home too. She got really sad as well.

After all the goodbyes, some forever, some for just another month, I know that I will be alright. I am still focused on what God has called us here to do. We will go to the next place and start all over. It will be hard at times and amazing at others…just like it was to adjust here. Pray for us…Pray that we keep our hearts and attitudes aligned with God’s. If we go with it, it may be easier than if we resist and dwell too much on what we’ve left behind. The Journey continues….and its still incomprehensible. Ha